I sat in front of Babaji's picture meditating daily, for years - if he was really around helping people, he would have stopped this.

I wasnt attracted to them, I was indoctrinated into it as a child, from another cult I grew up in. Dont blame my karma please.

I do like Autobiography of a Yogi, Vishwananda likes to suggest he is the reincarnation of Yogananda. I used Yogananda's affirmations for years. Again, no help. So im sorry but I am done with it all.